Have you ever really thought about the past? School, family, friends? Well I have been alot. I've been spending alot of time with a old friend, and it really brings back old memories. Those memories, weren't like big building blocks in life. They were those really little moments that ALOT of people forget. But, me, ha, i'll never forget them. They are the little things that make me realize why life is so beautiful and special.
It was three years ago, my friend and I met. I don't really remember how we met though. All I rememeber was it was 8th grade p.e. I really wanted to be on her team. All the "popular" people were on it. And next thing I remember, were friends. She and her two other friends would walk over to my house after school, like everyday. I thought she was so cool. "8th grade and she could walk to my house?!" I was jealous. Now it's just about the car, and job, and getting were you want to the fastest. But then it was easy. Middle school, four years of high school and my friends. That group. That summer, we graduated and laughed about how high school was gonna be. I had a summer crush, who I thought was the love of my life, but I was thirteen. We had a sleepover that summer, Ohh, i'm never going to forget it. Tye-dye party in the garage, avacado face masks (bad idea) and just laughs and fun. Immaturity to the fullest. Now we have to worry and care about getting a job, or a licenses, and school! Oh school, grades, for college.
So that summer, was great. That is probably the only thing I remember from it. Oh, and the weekend I spent, at Knott's Berry Farm. This will be worth millions. So every year on the same weekend we go to "Knott's Berry Farm," for my dad's birthday. I remember getting to the hotel at 7 p.m. and yelling "we have to be back for the premire of High School Musical 2." Cause at the time, no DVR, and all that stuff we have today. And we went out to eat and left the resturant 5 minutes before it started. We made it back a minute after it started. So my dad, and siblings go down to the pool while it's on, and my mom falls asleep in the hotel, and i'm sitting their, smiling and dancing along to the movie. And I sat their at the end, and said to myself, that will be me one day. It was just one of those moments, that, you'll never forget.
That year, it was freshman year. Oh boy! It was really scary at first but I got through it. It was all about being in a class with my best friend, who at the time was named Nicole. And I had to make sure I was by her locker. The bad teachers, the good friends, it was all perfect. So one weekend during that year, my friend had a sleepover, with me and her other friend. She was seeing someone at the time. She didn't really like him and wanted to call off the relationship. If she ever figures out i'm talking about her, she'll kill me. But anyways to the morning we wake up, she checks her phone, and theirs a text saying "Go on my myspace page and look at the picture with what I bought you." And we want on and looked. We ran to her moms room to get on the computer. We looked and went crazy. He bought her this amazing necklace. And you'd think.. he's a keeper? SO sweet and kind. But they were dating for like two days. So he calls my friend's cell, and the other girl their answers and he asks "has she seen it?" and the girl lies and says, "No she's still sleeping." She didn't want to talk to him after that, it was like he was weird, or something. Clingy. Their's the word! So that day she introduced me to this song "Beauty In The Breakdown" by The Scene Aesthetic. The acoustic version. It was probably the first acoustic, coffee shop song I ever heard. Cause I instantly fell inlove with it.
That winter, I met a boy. For all reasons, and purposes his name is going to be "Nolan." We had a major thing going on. It never lasted. I remember that winter vacation, he was dating someone. He came over, late at night. It was cold, and quite. The Christmas lights all around my neighborhood were on. He came over, and tried to kiss me. Yeah, i'm admitting this. But I flipped, and said no. He was dating someone and I told him that. He left, abut before he did, he said, I might not be back for awhile. Now, i'm not going to start with how many lies he's said. But I cried my eyes to sleep that night, regretting saying no. But now, i'm totally happy with that decision. But, that next day, I went outside, and stood outside. It was New Year's Eve, I believe, because my friend invited me to a party. That day, it was soo windy. I waited outside from 11 a.m. to about 10 p.m. thinking he'd come back to see me. I was just so sad. He never came back that day or week. It felt horrible.
Valentine's day came soon after that. I'm just going to say, he made me a build-a-bear. Love it or hate it? Loved it, now hate it.
Summer again came, this time, we grew up. Kinda. We still all loved life. My friend, Nicole would come over and go swimming. We'd listen to our iPods all day and go swimming. We did the most random but fun things. That summer, I went to "Knott's Berry Farm" again. Except, this time, Disney Channel games were on. Before we watched it, my mom went to CVS. I bought ever magazine with Demi Lovato or the Jonas Brothers on the cover. I read them all that night, while watching the new episode of it. After reading all the magazine's and watching that episode, I sat their. A year later and told myself, that will be me one day. I'm not cocky.
That year, was interesting. It was one of the most, longest, miserablest, complicatedest years ever. The only memory i'm going to take away from it, is a choir field trip. It was right before winter break. I love winter, and Christmas, so it was like feeling invincable. So we had to bring our blankets and pj's cause we wouldn't be home until 1 a.m. So we get on the bus after getting all our bags. And we were going to Redland's College, it's by Big Bear. My choir teacher went there and she wanted us to see the campus, to consider going there ourselves. So we get their, and my goodness! The campus, is beautiful. We first went to the cafeteria for lunch. And boy, we are so much shorter then college kids. Then we took a tour of the campus. It's gorgeous. I was speechless. Then we went and sat in the church while the choir directior told us about the music department. It's amazing! Then we went to the school store, and I bought a sweater that I always wear now, it says "Redland's College." In red print. It's a grey sweater. I honestly love it! Then after we went out to eat off campus. Such an amazing experience. Then we all got dressed on the same bus that took us up their, for a Church event, called "The Feast Of Lights" It's were they light the inside of the church with candles, and the choir sings Christmas music, and music honoring Christ, our savior. It was just an amazing ceremony. Amazing day.
And now, it's summer. I was at my friend's house doing summer homework a few nights ago. The same friend, who I experienced half this stuff with. We stayed up half the night to do the homework. We had inscents burning and we were listening to acoustic music. It brought all these memories back. And we were talking about alot of these memories that i'm writing about. Now, she can drive and has a job. Were both going to be juniors, and these memories that seem like yesterday are gone. We can't relive them. And i'm not trying to relive the past, but I wrote this to tell anyone who reads this, and no one does. I write this for my own benefit, but if someone reads this. I want them to stop, think, and realize that THEY SHOULDN'T BE WANTING EVERYTHING TO COME FAST. Because I did cherish these moments, and many more that I didn't write about, but I'm not looking for life to pass me by. I plan on having many more of these kinds of memories, and experiences like these. But if your 13, DON'T rush. Don't think about 1 more year until high school. Three more years until I can drive. Because only a few months ago, I was 13 and now i'll be 16 soon.
I don't want to be 16 soon and starting my junior year of high school. I haven't been to a dance. Or even a football game. I haven't gotten an A on a science test. I haven't fallen for a cute guy, who would give me the time of day. So to you, who are 13, do those things. I'm not writing a note, like my life is ending because it's really starting for me, but for you who are starting high school. Don't look at it like torture. Study for a test! Like a boy! Go to a dance, with your girlfriends. Have school spirit, I just want you to have memories like me. I'm just writing this, because I miss my 8th though 10th grade years. Because it's carefree.
"you say, you say that we're all tied up
and wrapped around in useless, states of mind
but at the same time we're still young
we have the time to realized that we weren't wrong."
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