Learn how to bleed while living.

I use to think I had bad luck. I use to just sit there and feel pain when I would give up. But now, I just feel like i'm on the top of a mountain, and the only option left for me is to jump. And the weird thing is, I want to jump. I'd love to take that chance that my body has been telling me take. It's like the only open road, but yet my head slowly backs away and just wants me to bleed.

We loose things we love, to gain strength, or because it's what is meant to be. Were told on the first day of kindergarten will need every skill we learn. Were told in 6th grade, will need to use cursive forever. We learn in Middle school that there's drama, but no way to avoid it. Were told in High School, were adults. But that's all crap.

Those aren't important things. Were not told how to breathe, how to live, how to love or how to loose but we manage, right? When we don't have the answer, we just want to jump of the mountain, but chances are we really don't. I've learned, in order to have the answer, or to learn, we need to just jump..

Scary.

But no, it's not. We are here, to make mistakes, to take chances, to not listen, to love more then once, to get hurt, to hold our breath, and to loose. But why do we pretend like were fragile? It's so we don't get hurt, so we don't die, the same things we don't think about everyday, but know there possible.

I keep writing and searching on an answer for pain, and lose, and what love is like. But, you can't write about it, or study it. You have to experience it. We all need to suffer, and loose people we love, and to love like we don't know what it is. We need to be crazy and wild and free. It's repulsive to sit on your ass your whole life, and not even know what it's like to lose someone you love, and suffer.

We think that if we shield ourselves we will be happy forever. But we will be happy if we go out of our way to jump off the mountain, because no matter what, your going to fall and bleed.

We all need to be different and daring and courageous. We need to just jump. Towards the little things, and toward the big things.

We just need to learn how to bleed while living.