Living Happiness.

I like to think that in the last year of my life, i've learned so much, that i've experienced, so many amazing moment, that would change a person. Between yesterday and today, i've realized a lot though. One, a teacher's speech has changed my world. Two, God exists. Three, I love Arizona. And four, love is extraordinary! In girl's chapel yesterday, a teacher spoke about her "ordinary" testimony. It made me think, where is the priority of God in my life. I believe in Him, BUT is that enough to make me want to read my Bible, and pray, and etc.

Now, yesterday night on my drive to Arizona. I was driving through the desert at night. It was an amazing night. You could see the sky and just think. I changed the radio and the only thing that was basically being able to play, and not be all, static, was "Marvelous Light." Complete and udder sign. It couldn't have been more made. I had been thinking about God and that song comes up. Immediately, I start blasting it, and then I look up at the sky, and think "Heaven, and God." It couldn't have more then the moment I could be saved. And I mean "could" because it is up to me, to make sure I am. I have to devote myself to God. That is hard for me. I'm not going to lie, i'm selfish, and I don't think I can have it any other way in life, honestly.

Next, ARIZONA. Beautiful, amazing, wonderful, peaceful, tranquil, really. I just need this. Being here. I have a house here. Well, my grandma does, and lately, I just want to stay here. It's perfect. What a 16 year old really needs. I wish I could, really, just live here. My grandma, my mom and me. I can get away from the city and busy life. Here, i'm free to just be me. Whoever that is. I'm going to try and see if I can come here every weekend now. I really love it here. If everyone came here, you'd know completely, what i'm talking about.

Love. I can talk, talk, talk, talk, about love. I have never experienced it. BUT, i've watched it, read it, and heard about it enough to feel like I have had it. The Notebook, is literally, the best example, so far, of what love is. I watched that movie today with my mom. We both cried so much. Love, the indefinable feeling. I just feel so overwhelmed whenever I think about love. That's how intense it is. Love is just a true gift. If you won't ever experience it, fighting, loving, smiling, etc., my whole heart goes out to you, and know I love you.